Tuesday, April 27, 2010

you're a hot mess.

...yeah, the last picture is kinda of awkward.
XD blame kime buzelli, the artist from LA whose name i cannot spell to save my life.
...
yeah.
I'm really really really tired.
Of testing, of swimming, of school. I'm already tired of freaking summer school, and that hasn't even started yet!
Ugh, I haven't written in DAYS. I need to finish some geometry homework, study for an English vocab test, and not die.
That's not in a specific order.
I STILL NEED TO LOSE GOSH FORSAKEN 10 POUNDS!
AHHHHHHHHH.
-takes deep breath-
I think I'm okay now.
Not really.
-Angie

Sunday, April 25, 2010

maybe it's because i hate you.

or maybe it's because you stole my boyfriend <3
-
yeah, i'm random like that. that's the title of my new book/novel/fiction for internet thing.
i'm a walking idea machine...person.
yeah.
i reallyx100 want a vintage typewriter. i'm thinking of buying one on ebay...but...
well, at the moment, my life is pretty much undecided. we're moving out of our lovely, amazing, homey home. we're pretty much being kicked out; because of this ill event, we're moving to another place, maybe in clovis. i really hope we get a locale near my school...that would help a lot.
today, i had a mental breakdown in the middle of the mall.
yeah, that's real mature of me. i pretty much lost it, i was calling myself a fat cow because my mother kept saying that everything looked amazing on 'stranger' and that if i lost a couple of pounds everything would look amazing on me too.
...
...
...
there went a couple of IQ points and the rest of my shattered self-esteem.
besides that, i'm perfectly fine. got a new makeup kit from urban decay.
Christ, if it was as if GOD came down and said 'Angela, this is your makeup brand!'
Wow. my sleep is really f-ed up as you can tell. haven't been sleeping very well.
i might as well call myself an insomniac while i'm at it.
but that wouldn't be true.
ugh, life is weird.
my hair is wet and i got a cool tea cup ring.
i need to update some stories on my FF account, but i'm putting that off because i have some math homework i need to finish in newspaper production tomorrow.
crap, i still got to get some interviews for that same class.
can you stay FML?
-ang

Thursday, April 22, 2010

you're a danger he's addicted to.

omg, i love it when songs have my name in it and they like, define my freaking life.
take angela by missy higgins.
good song, not so amazing vocals, but nether-less, i love the song.
i should get an award for blogging so scarcely. well, it's not my fault, i've had CSTs all week and I'm in a bind updating a lot of stories at once...
oh crap, i need to start writing two chapters for these stories.
ugh.
oh, i cannot wait for summer. i get to compose music and lounge in the sun, playing birth by sleep, squealing everytime ven comes up. XD
i'm just crazy.



enjoy.
-angie

Monday, April 19, 2010

i tend to disappear now and then

here's a delicious survey i stole from my bestie rachie.
yay for surveys~ i love surveys. they are very fun.
anyways, besides that, not much going on. except that my memory is being stupid. xP

The Letter A
Are you available?: To call? Sure. To date? Yeah. To meet? I doubt it. Go vagueness!
What is your age?: 14
What annoys you?: Romance.

Letter B
Do you live in a big house?: It's not too big, not too small. I love my house.
When is your birthday?: October 31st.
Who is your best friend?: Rachie and Rachie. LOL

Letter C
What's your favorite candy?: sweet tarts. that's all i will eat candy wise.
Who's your crush?: Hmm. Mortally: A rocker with blue eyes. Heavenly: Jesus. ^^
When was the last time you cried?: It's been a while...

The Letter D
Do you daydream? It's a habit/
What's your favorite kind of dog?: Alaskan Huskies and Crocker Spaniels mixed with Jack Terriers. <3
What day of the week is it?: Monday. Disgusting old Monday.

The Letter E
How do you like your eggs?: Sunny side up with no yolk. I'm crazy.
Have you ever been in the emergency room? Yes, but it wasn't for me. It was for my brother who got bitten by a dog. On his head.
What's the easiest thing ever to do?: ugh, lie and get fat. xP

The Letter F
Have you ever flown in a plane?: Many times. I'm a traveler.
Do you use fly swatters?: No, flies annoy me because I can't swat them. So I use the electrical thingy that they fly into and fry~! ^^
Have you ever used a foghorn?: That would be awesome.

The Letter G
Do you chew gum?: It's a lifeline
Are you a giver or a taker?: Taker. I don't do giving very well.
Do you like gummy candies?: Not a big fan.

The Letter H
How are you?: Persnickety. Very tired. Twitchy. Exasperated. Happy. Ridiculous.
What color is your hair? Black. Brown. Blue black under fluorescent lights and my camera with the flash feature on.

The Letter I
What's your favorite ice cream?: Cookies and Creme
Have you ever ice skated?: That was a painful experience
Do you play an instrument?: Nope. I can barely carry a tune on my craptastic flute.

The Letter J
What's your favorite jelly bean brand?: Jelly Belly. If you say otherwise, prepare to die.
Do you wear jewelry?: Purity ring, checkered ring, and a bracelet. That's it.

The Letter K
Who do you want to kill?: Heh. Is this a question to get me to admit that I have issues? If it is, I'm not falling for it!
Do you want kids?: I want a boy and a girl. But that would mean I have to go through excruciating pain. No thanks.
Where did you go for kindergarten?: Imagination Plus, the most freaking awesome kindergarten place ever in Las Vegas, Nevada

The Letter L
Are you laid back?: Depends the occasion
Do you lie? More than I have to

The Letter M
Whats your favorite movie?: The Princess Bride, Alice in Wonderland, Titanic, Push, 27 Dresses, Music and Lyrics...the list goes on
Do you still watch Disney movies?: My favorite movie is the 1951 version of Alice in Wonderland
Do you like mangos?: Mangos are yummy

The Letter N
Do you have a nickname?: yes. Star, G, Angie, and anything that has to do with that
What is your real name?: Angela Lizbeth Starfruit Lopez-Villarreal (:P that's not counting all the other crap we've added to my name)
Whats your favorite number?: 13
Do you prefer night over day?: Yes. I'm a night person

The Letter O
What's your one wish?: To be able to know where my life is going
Are you an only child?: Nopee. One sister and two brothers.

The Letter P
What one fear are you most paranoid about?: drowning and dying from hypothermia.
What are your pet peeves?: people who outfit repeat, when I know they have other crap in their closet. phones that don't send text messages right, and backstabbers.
What's a personality trait you look for in people?: Loyalty

The Letter Q
What's your favorite quote?: "The world ends with you, if you want to enjoy life, you have to push your horizons as far as they will go." This isn't the exact quote, this is my improvised/i can't remember the entire thing version.
Are you quick to judge people?: Yes. Sadly.

The Letter R
Do you think you're always right?: HAH. Every song with my name in it claims I'm always right. But they lie. Well, except the song 'Angela' by Missy Higgins. Missy says I'm dangerous. She's right.
Are you one to cry?: When I'm downright depressed or really pissed off.

The Letter S
Do you prefer sun or rain?: Rain. Most def, I can wear rain boots and carry an umbrella. Posh, right?
Do you like snow?: If I am in a warm car with delicious hot chocolate, yes. Ooh, and pictures.
What's your favorite season?: Autumn and Winter

The Letter T
What time is it?: 5:25PM (What is it with every freaking survey in the world asking you what time it is? What's it to you, bub?)
What time did you wake up?: 6:00AM
When was the last time you slept in a tent?: Never. Me+Camping= Not a very good time

The Letter U
Are you wearing underwear?: This is an intrusion of privacy. Yes
Underwear or boxers?: Is this question mandatory? Underwearr.

The Letter V
What's the worst veggie?: blah, i don't care for veggies. i especially dislike peas and asparagus
Where do you want to go on vacation?: NYC, Hollywood, Paris, London, and Japan. XD
The Letter W
What's your worst habit?: cuticle biting and the tendency to use sarcasm 24/7
Where do you live?: Lovely California
What's your worst fear?: drowning

The Letter X
Have you ever had an x-ray?: nose, head, and stomach
Have you seen the x-games?: on some occasions. surfer boys are hot.
Do you own a xylophone?: i wish.

The Letter Y
Do you like the color yellow?: ew. no. but i have an amazing memory of the color yellow: it was when i was on VMK a gazillion years ago and rachel made her character wear all yellow. i was blinded~!
What's one thing you yearn for? I yearn for the power to read minds.

The Letter Z
Favorite zoo animal? mmm. the birds. i do like penguins, they're so cutee~ XD
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This was really fun. XD
-Angie

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

maybe i'm just an idiot

or maybe it's maybelline.
---
fragmented thoughts run through my mind
messed up poetry is the most divine.
<3
that's how i live.
i'm pretty sure that my life has fallen to a new low. i'm working my arse off for good grades for pretty much nothing.
well, sorta nothing.
uc berkely doesn't take just anyone.
God, i want to go there so bad. it's my dream.
my road.
i guess.
i need more sleep, it's official, but i'm usually up typing useless words.
i'm accidentally in love.
with Jesus, with a boy.
actually, my relationship with Jesus was on purpose.
the boy was an accident.
ugh.
life is interesting.
no moping, nope, none whatsoever.
want to know what the best jack's mannequin song is?
none.
they're all too amazing.
.-.
i guess that i have nothing to look forward next year.
sophomore year. stupid stupid stupid.
i have to take algebra 2, chemistry, and other stupid stuff.
i won't be able to drive.
i need to drive.
i i i i.
that's all i think about.
me.
that's pathetic.
i think about others too.
oh rachel, how i wish you were here so i could forget that we live about 3. something miles away form each other.
oh other rachel, i wish summer could come here already so we could start composing music.
music.
OH MUSIC.
i need it...
oh.
i'm working on a movie.
blame 'accidentally in love' by counting crows.
-slams head against table-
-Angie

Monday, April 12, 2010

happy post number 90

well, it's my ninetieth post. i remember when i first started this blog. it was supposed to be my media/writing blog, where i would post poetry, lyrics, and stories.
look how far that went. this blog turned into my mouthpiece, where i would complain endlessly about life and lies and romance.
that's a lovely change.
not.
...i had a bad day today. i found out that my grade severly suffered in media. why is it that it's always media?! why can't it be a normal class, like math?! DX
i wanna go to the movies. i've been trying to go to the damn movies (oh, please excuse my french) for about the last three weeks.
it's ridiculous, really.
today. school.
yeah, biology's the same, french was stupid, newspaper was boring, and media was torture.
i need to listen to some imogen heap.
you do to too.
i suggest starting with 'headlock' or 'just for now'. they're both really good songs.
i'm going to become an official lyricist over the summer. that's exciting. i'm really excited about what's going down.
yay.
my stomach hurts. Px and i have to swim tomorrow. i dont wanna.
do you think it will rain?
...i hope so.
well, i saw tyler today.
ooh.
i think i should mention him here.
tyler. blonde haired, blue eyed, rocker that has stolen my heart.
idiot.
he's a really cool guy, but he's an idiot.
why do i always like the idiots?
maybe to balance out my geniousity?
idk.
-shakes head- media update.
chaos and conflict: i am editing at such a slow pace that the snails in my front yard can probably type faster.
corrupt a wish: i'm actually writing in it.
oh, and btw, i found the original manuscript. that was awesome.
i'm working on the script for our end of the year movie. it's gonna be bomb.
alright, i'm off.
-angie

Sunday, April 11, 2010

well well well

I'm back~! I know none of you missed me, due the lack of comments on my blog.
It makes me feel unloved. XD
Anyways, I am a terrible spender. I spent 92 dollars on the most random crap...
anyways, i'll talk about my horrible week later.
i'm tired.
ily.
-Angie

stupid.

guitar strums floating
chords that go unknown
in my mind
i replay the summer that
belonged to you and i
thunder clouds
stormy eyes
i look at you
with such demise
a simple phrase
left unsaid
worlds away
life is a magical, stupid, thing
and i am finally crumbling
under your gaze
God, i wish this was a phase
a fad i'm going through
because i swore
i would never
fall in love again
as you fall in step with me
our voices blend
in harmony
as we sing
some old words you wrote
on a summer day
doors slam
preachers preach
here i am
a disgruntled heap
waiting for a call that
never came
and instead was given a one-way
plane...
ticket punched
i take a seat
headed to a
place in my dreams
paris lights
beautiful fright
as you tap my shoulder
with a smile, you walk me
down that aisle
a simple phrase left unsaid
slips from your mouth
life a perfect day
life isn't so stupid anymore.
---
...
yeah.
-angie

poetry never comes from happiness

the edge of time
i wish you were mine
you take the pain
and shower me with rain
falling
falling
falling
down.
you let me down.
you eventually drowned
in black and white white dreams
you dreamt (i know that's not a real world, but you'll have to deal with it)
in technicolor days
i spent (life is such a stupid magical thing)
influence
ignorance
it all looks the same
you left a hole that cannot
be replaced*

-
does mended sound better?
*_*
-Angie

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

kill the messenger//jack's mannequin.
Just. Go. Listen.
<3

Sunday, April 4, 2010

i like a guy who's a complete idiot. maybe that's why i like him so much. i wish i could walk up and say hi without feeling out of place, but that's something that isnt happening soon. he has amazing eyes...ocean eyes. but i cant see those eyes anymore. he's gone and i never got say goodbye

Friday, April 2, 2010

february air

i am so freaking tired. it's 10:17. i should be asleep right now.
but haha, i'm not.
so i'm up, on the computer, on facebook.
i have no life whatsoever. that makes me feel overwhelmingly pathetic.
my back hurts.
ow.
anyways, enjoy this awesome song.
i am in love with LiGHTS right now. current writing muse. wait, i can't write yet, so i guess current muse in general.

you will be happy.
...
yeah.
as i said, i'm tired.
i got a tumblr though. whoohoo.
perfectionisacrime.tumblr.com
<3
-Angie