luminance

I was fourteen years old when I met him. He looked like the boy of my dreams, and he looked like the boy who would be made for me.
He was nothing, and everything, to me.
Now, I am on the cusp of my sixteenth year. We stare at each other in something that may be regret.
Regret, and reminisce. He takes her hand.
I turn away.

This is the story for today.

The Wonderful World of Debate Camp

This post will eventually be come to known as the immense, "FUCK YOU, DEBATE CAMP" post.

I regret nothing.

So, debate camp. It’s pretty stupid, in all honesty. I’m sitting, listening to this “world renowned” debate guy. We’ve been going to ridiculous lengths to chip the armor that encloses his case. Carlee is doing most of the work, only to be absolutely shut down, and insulted in the process. I decided that I absolutely detest the guy we're working with. His voice makes me want to fall asleep, and his presence is just so damn magnetic, you really can't fall asleep. He cusses, listens to awful music, and is just over-all, an annoying piece of work.

He also thinks that giving us homework is the best idea ever. Screw you, sir debate guy. Screw you. I have to write a debate case, by tomorrow morning. I don't understand how that's going to even happen. I want to play my 360, because I have Final Fantasy 13 in my possession. Might as well play it.

Obviously, that's not happening. I've been ignoring messages on my fanfiction account, I've been ignoring MSN chats, I've been ignoring just about everyone. All because of debate. I find this rather stupid, and completely unnecessary, and I absolutely envy the Speech geeks right now. I want to work on my OO sooooooo badly right now, I am willing to do anything to get out of debate camp right now.

/sigh.

It doesn't help when there are no attractive guys to befriend. All the currently attractive guys are taken, and the stupid guy I crushed on last year is an idiot.

The end.

MORAL OF THE STORY: DEBATE SUCKS, DON'T JOIN IT!

Meet Mackenzie de Lis

You know when you're procrastinating way too much when you decide to type down your favorite fictional character's biography on your blog.

ENJOY~

name: Mackenzie de Lis
age: Eighteen.
hometown: Neo-Los Angeles, California.

Talent: Telepathy & Mind Control.

Quote: "A short note on a subject people shouldn't be asking about, by me. That sounds like a lovely introduction, doesn't it?"

Known For: Her notebook that's been passed around the halls of Neo-Los Angeles's School For Rising Puppeteers, with information on just about everything, and anyone.

and now I will edit this later. Because that's fun.

You Would've Had the Ultimate Ginger.

What is one to do when your best friend leaves you?

I decided to answer this question through my various split-personalities, I mean, fictional characters.
Fictional characters, yeah. Sure, whatever. I'll keep telling myself that. Ugh.

From Inevitable:

Anabel: "What friends? I don't need such stupidity weighing me down."
Sabrina: "Stop being so melodramatic, Anabel."
Anabel: "Are you kidding me? You're the one who fucking tried to kill me."
Sabrina: "Details, details. Personally, I would be sad about it for a second, and then go absolutely wreck that person's life~"
Anabel: "That was so grammatically incorrect. It should be illegal."
Sabrina: "Like you haven't said something grammatically incorrect. Freaking grammar nazi."
Anabel: "I am not a grammar nazi. I'm simply trying to warn the world from your stupidity."

From After Wonderland:
Imogen: "Um, well, I'd be kind of mad...or sad? Um..."
Artemis: "You're so stupid, Imogen. Stupid, stupid, stupid."
Imogen: "Or I would deck Artemis. Yeah, I like that idea better."
Artemis: "Imogen is stupid, stupid, stupid. Disgusting, stupid, and stupid."
Imogen: "Shut up, Artemis. This is my answer, not yours."
Artemis: "Stupid, stupid-"
Imogen: "-as I was saying, I would be kind of disappointed in both of us. I would've probably had something to do with it, but it's also the other person's fault, you know? For not calling, or at least being courteous enough to tell you 'hey, the friendship is over, kthxbai.'"

From Catastrophe:
Harley: "I would probably punch them in the face."
Daniel: "Isn't that a bit violent over some petty girl-fight?"
Harley: "Of course not."
Kalina: "Um, Harley, I really think punching people in the face wouldn't fix anything."
Colton: "No shit."
Harley: "I think punching people in the face is absolutely necessary. There should be a holiday reserved for this sacred event."
Lucas: "You're psychotic."

I hope you enjoyed. Today's blog title comes from Doctor Who episode "Vincent and the Doctor." :3

Words with Angie: Stalker

Today, we'll unravel the urban legend that is the word "stalker".

Most people tend to peg this word to anyone who appears at the most random moments, or the like.

ACTUAL DEFINITION:

stalk·er

A person who stealthily hunts or pursues an animal or another person A person who harasses or persecutes someone with unwanted and obsessive attention

Now, before you go and accuse someone of stalking you, please keep this in mind.

I've noticed even I've been using the word in a wrongful way, and it kind of sucks.

Anyways, that's all for today!

So, I was like, "Screw you."

As I type this, I attempt to pull myself together from the following:

• Watching the movie From Prada To Nada, which was an okay flick, for having Camilla Belle and Alexa Vega in it.
• Sobbing uncontrollably.

I think that the reasons I get upset are pretty stupid. I get upset over things like sold-out concert tickets, or stupid whores, or boys. I think those are all pretty stupid reasons to cry about.

I mean, seriously.

Well, it's a shame I cry about them anyways. We'll start from the beginning, yes?

1) Sold Out Concert Tickets.

Son of a gun, I swear, I didn't know that 3K tickets would be gone in a week. Seriously, what the hell? I'm angry, at myself for not getting the money sooner, and just angry/disappointed at myself for letting Rach down. I feel awful, because this was seriously the highlight of my summer, and now, it's all gone.

I'm actually going to have to stay home and wait for the concert to come and go, so we can weep bitterly and watch concert footage on Youtube. It's not fair.

2) Stupid Whores.

Whores. Whores. Don't like the word? Too bad. Whore whore whore whore.

Okay, I'm done overemphasizing the word. Anyways, I despise the way people are so hypocritical, and act like they're incorruptible pureness and then go on to act like a complete slut. Really, now? You do not flirt with a boy that you know that your friend likes. That just doesn't work. You do not continue to flirt with said boy after said friend confronts you. You do not hug said boy in front of said friend, who wants to pummel you to the ground.

Baka.

3) Boys.

Is it stupid of me to want a fairytale? I want to find a boy that is/has...

• Respectful towards his own family, and mine.
• Respectful towards me, my body, and my regulations.
• Polite.
• Gentlemanly.
• Elegant.
• Well-dressed.
• Well-versed in literature.
• A writer of some sort.
• Blue eyes.
• Snarky comments.
• Witty banter.
• Intelligence.
• A second language.
• A desire to travel the world.
• Some sort of musician.
• Funny.
• Adorkable.
• Geeky.
• Wears glasses for fun.
• Has a good taste in music.
• Sensitive.
• Protective.
• Understanding.
• Humble.
• Tech-savvy.
• Honest.
• a God-loving human being.
• Respectful towards God.
• Believes in God, in general. Because that's important.
• Photogenic.
• Eloquent.

I'm pretty sure there are more qualities, but these are the ones that have been coming up in my head at random moments. I want love, I crave it desperately.

It's actually quite depressing how much I want it. I just keep looking for it in the wrong people. I need to learn how to love and accept my own flaws before demanding for someone else to love me.

Who is going to love you when you can't love yourself? No one.

I want to get past being a 2dimensional princess and start living the life I want to live. I've come to realize that I'm blessed to have friends, and that's time to get rid of the ones who aren't contributing to anything. I need to get rid of those stupid friends I have that flirt with the guys you like, and simply put you down when you try to talk to them about something important.

I need to start living for myself, because the world will continue spinning without me. It'll be fine.

So, for now, I'll get some sleep. I'm still going to work tomorrow. I'll probably save most of the money, and use a bit of it to buy myself something nice. Maybe a pair of socks.

Or, you know, something practical. I don't know.

a week in review~

Sunday

• Decided to go on a Facebook & Cookie Strike. I haven't been on Facebook, and I ate onecookie today. That means I cannot eat anymore for the rest of the week. Sadness ensues.
• Managed to convince my mother to say "yes" to my Hatsune Miku Concert Extravaganza.
• Did nothing important.
• Went to church.

Monday

• Boring Monday is boring Monday.
• I announce the concert details to my best friend, Rachel. She promptly freaks. It's awesome.
• Other crap ensues.
• Oh, hi Mock Trial. *waves* I join the team, and realize I'm going to be stuck with my sort of/on and off crush for the next year and a half.
• Joy.

Tuesday

• Nothing fun. I plan on what I'll be wearing for our concert. Cosplay is sadly out of the equation. *sobs*
• I do my homework.
• Mock Trial.
• So yeah.

Wednesday

• That's today, right? Um.
• I have double chemistry. I attempt to commit suicide.
• It fails.
• Rach and I attempt to create a list of potential love interests that aren't a) dating one someone, b) named Conor, or c) stupid.
• It fails.
• I have double French 2. I commit suicide.
• Only for a second, though.
• I have double English. It's boring/cool/interesting/and yeah.
• I finish 1984 by George Orwell. *sobs* It's my new favorite book ever.
• I check the prices for our concert. The grand total is...currently 95$. WINNING.
• I say currently, because I just sent an email to the registration people asking if I needed three registration badges. If I do, I'll start crying uncontrollably.
• I am writing this post.

I have a math final tomorrow. I'm getting off the computer so I can *gasp* study. I need to get a wonderful score, or I'll die, and my A- will perish along with me. Sadness ensues.

Besides all of that, you're probably (not) wondering how my love life is going.

It's nonexistent, stop laughing at my sheer patheticness. Instead, I will show you a picture of my perfect boyfriend, as drawn by Rachel.

It's flipped. I know.

And I will leave you with my top five favorite Vocaloid songs.

#5) Two Breaths Walking - KAITO & Hatsune Miku

Why? This song. This this this this. It's perfection, I swear. It's one of my favorites, because it's simple, but it tells such a complex story - a story of leaving your childhood behind, and coming to terms that you're allowed to enjoy things from your youth, and you don't have to burn every bridge. It's one of the only songs that actually can use KAITO wonderfully, considering his voice bank sucks. Miku also sounds great in this song. :)

#4) Double Lariat - Megurine Luka

Why? aldjflakf THIS SONG IS WONDERFUL. There are two versions, and I posted the one I like better, because it has a story, and it's just such a great pick you up song. It's one of the songs I listen to when I'm in a bad mood, or whatever, because it brings a smile to my face!

#3) Mozaik Role/Cowardly Mont Blanc - GUMI

Why?: These were the songs that first introduced me to my favorite Vocaloid, besides Luka and Miku. They're connected, in some sort of weird way, and they're both written by deco*27, who's absolutely brilliant and composing songs. I like the imagery in both videos, and they're both really catchy, in completely different ways.

#2) Delusion Sketch/Monochrome Blue Sky - Hatsune Miku

Why? Miku, Miku, Miku. Well, we have an interesting love/hate relationship. There's a couple of songs I absolutely detest by Miku, but those two mentioned are my favorites. They really show off her vocal range, and they're both really catchy and fun. Delusion Sketch actually beat out Monochrome Blue Sky for a while, and Monochrome Blue Sky isn't that good, but it's still a great song.

#1) Karakuri Blast - Kagamine Len & Rin.

Why? Holy crap. Where can I start? Not only is this song completely different from the rest, but it's like, wow. I can start by clarifying that Len is not a Nazi, before someone makes a smart comment like that. The swastika is inverted, so yeah. Anyways, Len vs Rin, in a show of epic epicness. Their voices are freaking life-like, and the lyrics are alkjdfklajfd awesomeness to the nth degree.