someone like you

I want to talk on the subject of money.
Money is something I tend to spend. I don't save money because I have a hard time doing so.
Money is evil. When you have a lot of it, you are lifted up in social rank. When you have too little of it, it's hard to get by.
I'm no millionaire, but I know a couple. *CoughMr.PaleandSpookyCough*
So, I'm going to start saving my money. After I buy my Serah costume, of course. *shot* By then, I won't have any money to save! I fail so epically, there are no words!

I had an interesting day today.

the moment

There's a time where you simply stop thinking and start...well, dying.

I am a hardcore self-depreciator, I will not lie about that. It's how I was programmed to function - if I keep myself at a lower level, people will underestimate me and I'll be able to rise from my self-induced handicap and beat the living shit out of everyone.

Or, at least, that's what I thought I would be able to do. I have kept myself at this lower standard for such a long time now that I'm doubting my own abilities - and I hate being another cliched teenager in this sea of puppets because it's now how I roll.

I make my own roads, I don't follow preset directions. I was never good with them, anyways.

But what does this have to do with Love? Everything.

Most of you already know that I am infatuated (noun :infatuation - a foolish and usually extravagant passion or love or admiration) with a boy. I refuse to admit it, but he's become integrated into my life in way I hate - constantly. plaguing. my thoughts.

And I hate it because I cannot control these emotions - they're pesky things. I feel like I'm not worth it, I feel like I'm not good enough for him. Which makes me feel even more pathetic considering he is just a boy, another nameless puppet in our society. I am a wallflower. He is too. We are a match made in Heaven - but for him to realize this is like for me to admit that he's just not that in to me. Not. Going. To. Happen.

I hate feeling inferior, but I hate feeling like I'm on top of the world.

Can feelings go away? Please?

Wait, no. No no no no no no. I like feelings. Wait, no I don't.

Ew, contradiction after contradiction - I need to sort my head out. I mean, honestly. adfasd;;;

Well, like, ugh.

(scientifically speaking, you have to be infatuated with a person for over a year and a half to be technically "in love". or something like that.)

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY

WARNING: If you have a dislike for nerdy-ness supreme, please run away screaming.

Okay, today is the day guys. I've been spazzing about it for the last year and a half - today, Pokemon Black and White come out to the US! Squee~

Now feel free to shoot me! :D

what will it take to make you fall in love with me?

Very much, I assume, due to the fact you haven't run into my arms yet.

It's okay, though. You will, eventually.

Oh my God I sound like a psycho-stalker someone please shoot me before it's too late.

EDIT: I fail at spelling. 0_0

what matters to me doesn't matter to them.

I don't care anymore.

No. No. No.

I'm not even going to bother with formalities.

Taylor Swift shouldn't date Adam Young. It just shouldn't happen. But of course, Karma and Life are out to get me and decided to present this:

Why? That's what I would like to know.

we make the hipsters fall in love

Ke$ha does bad things to you.

Your mind, that is.

I'm not going to make this a long post. No one reads my blog anymore, anyways. I've taken up blogging on other sites, which is fine.

I feel so lost.