maybe i'm just an idiot

or maybe it's maybelline.
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fragmented thoughts run through my mind
messed up poetry is the most divine.
<3
that's how i live.
i'm pretty sure that my life has fallen to a new low. i'm working my arse off for good grades for pretty much nothing.
well, sorta nothing.
uc berkely doesn't take just anyone.
God, i want to go there so bad. it's my dream.
my road.
i guess.
i need more sleep, it's official, but i'm usually up typing useless words.
i'm accidentally in love.
with Jesus, with a boy.
actually, my relationship with Jesus was on purpose.
the boy was an accident.
ugh.
life is interesting.
no moping, nope, none whatsoever.
want to know what the best jack's mannequin song is?
none.
they're all too amazing.
.-.
i guess that i have nothing to look forward next year.
sophomore year. stupid stupid stupid.
i have to take algebra 2, chemistry, and other stupid stuff.
i won't be able to drive.
i need to drive.
i i i i.
that's all i think about.
me.
that's pathetic.
i think about others too.
oh rachel, how i wish you were here so i could forget that we live about 3. something miles away form each other.
oh other rachel, i wish summer could come here already so we could start composing music.
music.
OH MUSIC.
i need it...
oh.
i'm working on a movie.
blame 'accidentally in love' by counting crows.
-slams head against table-
-Angie